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Another training session down and it's not getting any easier. The first 10 minutes are hell and I still feel like headed and somewhat sick until that all just gives away to pain, but at 38 years and 5 months it's time to take control of my life. Throwing myself into physical exercise so I don't do myself in with mental exercise.

There has been a bit of heart ache in the last 2 weeks and it's probably a good time for the chat to die as my ex isn't exactly making it easy. I was doing really well until I saw her again yesterday, but I am doing my best to not let it get me down. I have no regrets thought to be honest, I just made a bad judgement call but see my previous blog. Life isn't about having regrets it's about doing what feels right at the time an learning/ evolving from those judgement calls.

This is absolutely the last time I will bring that up, but I do have one chip on my shoulder. If can change your status to "in a relationship" you have the obligation to call (at least) to break up. I would have taken it better than a message. If you are just fucking, fine send a message, but if you take the relationship serious enough to change your facebook status, then you should show that same seriousness to your break up.

Anyway, I'm here to stay as I love the community of Suicide Girls but looks like the feeling may not be mutual with the AU click, but still I love this site and will not be going anywhere soon.

Thank you to all those who have friended me and are patient with me, and have taken the time to get to know me and especially those who have remained friends with me and my ex.

Blah blah blah...stupid bleeding heart. Stay positive people, even when you feeling negative inside. I'll try and be more positive from now on.