oxy

le sigh....and i so wanted to do a happy oxy post today.

And really...over the last few days...i HAVE been a happy oxy...mainly thanks to the wonderfull people on my friends list.

But alass....

The Background.

As has been detailed on here before...i lost my first true love when she commited suicide. People that know that will also know that im still effected by this daily .
What few of you know is that years later..when i moved to Oxford...i meet another girl...who looked, talked, acted and sounded exactly like my first love.
We got on well from the start...in many ways it was almost like continuing from my previous relationship (although i made sure to never think of it as such)
And just as things started to get serious....her whole family moved...taking her with them.

Yesterday i was invited to a friends wedding. I turned up...found my seat...and sat down.
And 5 mins later she turned up and sat down beside me...with her husband.
We talked...and joked...and remembered old times. And now shes gone again.

Its like my past came back to haunt me for a night.

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SO.............i just want to get back to being fun Oxy again....

I nearly got there before the weekend...and i plan to do it again.

So if anyone sees me beind down or moody....just give me a slap.....preferably over the ass.

Hope your all doing well.