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Wednesday Jun 28, 2006

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Asking a heart to love less is like asking the sun to stop shining, or the rain to stay another day. Aint gonna happen. The secret is learning to live with the pain.. accept it, even embrace it. Thats what I aim to do.

I never want to hear from you again. I never want to read your thoughts. I never want to listen to your voice.

That was the last time I will cry over what you said. The wound has been seared and patted dry ready to heal.

That could be all lies.. I still hear your voice read me childrens poems, I still feel your presence while looking down my mountain into town, I still see your beauty all around me, and I think I can smell you in the wind. Regardless, I am ready to redefine myself. Make up some stories that might make me seem interesting while telling the truth the whole time. "I am boring", "I am an idiot", "Im a retard". Remember when I told you all those things and you refused to belive me? You still might tell me I am wrong, but then I wouldnt be the only one.

This is not just my last journal entry about you, but my last reference to you at all.

Goodbye.
user304975207:
hope youre ok
Jun 28, 2006

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