outtolunch

My gammpa went into the hospital today, he has been in and outat least once a month since about march and it is getting more frequent. I have a feeling that this is the time.. I dont know I just feel it. I want to fly up and see him before he is gone but I dont have the money, its killing me. I feel empty inside already and now I feel like I am going to cave in.

I know Im not active on here anymore, and most people on a site like this arent religeous, but if you could say something for him that would be great. He was more of a father to me than my dad was..

I dont know what to feel right now. I know he is in pain and trying to keep him here is selfish for anyone that isnt him, but I cant imagine my family without him.