not much has changed.
still feeling hurt and let-down. i know that will go away with time, but right now it sucks. i'm still stuck in that place where everything i see or hear reminds me of her. so damn cliche but its true and i hate it.
atleast i can feel. there was a time not too long ago when i was completely devoid...
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still feeling hurt and let-down. i know that will go away with time, but right now it sucks. i'm still stuck in that place where everything i see or hear reminds me of her. so damn cliche but its true and i hate it.
atleast i can feel. there was a time not too long ago when i was completely devoid...
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venna:
Hey there, thanks for the add. Sorry about your girl situation.....In any event, I know how you feel and have been through the same thing. It'll get better. 
ferrara:
Its better feeling like this now, then living any longer in the ingnorance that she is seeing someone else. PS thanks for the add.. it was pretty obvious I was a SG loner girl 
ahh. where do i begin.
girl update. before i left for nashville i talked to (i never know exactly what to call her.. girlfriend, ex or) the girl. we weren't supposed to be talking, atleast that was the plan, but of course we didn't stick to it. as i posted before she said she wasn't ready to commit to a relationship right now, and realistically...
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girl update. before i left for nashville i talked to (i never know exactly what to call her.. girlfriend, ex or) the girl. we weren't supposed to be talking, atleast that was the plan, but of course we didn't stick to it. as i posted before she said she wasn't ready to commit to a relationship right now, and realistically...
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buzzhum:
Yea man..thats tough. Facts being facts...evryones kind of fucked up from something somehow. I'm right here in the mix.
My last GF has been slowly warming up to me. Everyone that knew us..and I do mesan EVRYONE that knew us woudl say I'm insane for even entertaining the idea. They are probably right. IT was never really done in my head though...we sort of blew a gasget and called it over.
As the idea of her/us becomes a little (if only a tad) more of a reality, the issues and challenges that were there become more apprent again. You know, distance makes the heart grow fonder. The sad reality is love is not enough. I can say (but don't in places he can see it) that I love her.
The twist...Shes an awsome person that got the shaft as a child. She so pretty inside and out...amazingly hot in fact. Shes afraid though that if people notice her for that, that they will find out how broken she is..and all the crushingly terrible things that happened to her will be found out.
It breaks my heart.
So she has all these control features in place to make sure this never happens. I don't know if I have it in me to navigate these waters...I don't know if those waters are navigateable. Even the notion that shes intrested in trying us again is doen vaguly and is presented in a way that she coudl turn on me and say that I misuderstood what she was saying...that she simply still cares for me and wanted me to knwo....etc.
I didn't mean to get as in depth. Much of this is very new as of this week and then she wrote last night...so its really fresh in my head.
See you tomorrow perhaps? Try to come say hi if you can.
My last GF has been slowly warming up to me. Everyone that knew us..and I do mesan EVRYONE that knew us woudl say I'm insane for even entertaining the idea. They are probably right. IT was never really done in my head though...we sort of blew a gasget and called it over.
As the idea of her/us becomes a little (if only a tad) more of a reality, the issues and challenges that were there become more apprent again. You know, distance makes the heart grow fonder. The sad reality is love is not enough. I can say (but don't in places he can see it) that I love her.
The twist...Shes an awsome person that got the shaft as a child. She so pretty inside and out...amazingly hot in fact. Shes afraid though that if people notice her for that, that they will find out how broken she is..and all the crushingly terrible things that happened to her will be found out.
It breaks my heart.
So she has all these control features in place to make sure this never happens. I don't know if I have it in me to navigate these waters...I don't know if those waters are navigateable. Even the notion that shes intrested in trying us again is doen vaguly and is presented in a way that she coudl turn on me and say that I misuderstood what she was saying...that she simply still cares for me and wanted me to knwo....etc.
I didn't mean to get as in depth. Much of this is very new as of this week and then she wrote last night...so its really fresh in my head.
See you tomorrow perhaps? Try to come say hi if you can.
i'm in nashvegas for the weekend. hope everyone has a great weekend. stay safe.
omd.
omd.
_bossanova_:
What's there to do in Nashville? I always think Memphis is much more appealing, if you have to be in Tennessee.
i got approved to got visit my dad's house in nashville this weekend. i'm really looking forward to going, its been over six months since i've been there. i've already planned out some meetings to go to while i'm there, so that should be fun. i'm looking forward to getting some of my things that have been in storage there since i left. i'm also...
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i'm having some fun getting reimmersed in what's going on in the world. before life went to hell i was planning on going to law school and getting my masters in public policy analysis. i was a daily blogger, constantly searching for things to write about. i'm getting a little bit of that back now. it feels like my brain is finally coming alive. i...
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i talked to the girl last night. she wrote me a text message asking how things were going, said she had been thinking about me, etc. it was an awkward conversation, hard to shrink a weeks worth of happenings and events into a cohesive statement that answers the question "so, how have you been?" she told me she had been thinking of me atleast as...
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just had lunch with some of my friends. it was good. i love just having lunch and talking about nothing for a while. definitely takes my mind off all the things that are floating around in my head at any given moment.
i really wish there were more going on right now. i'm struggling with just being alone with myself. i always feel like i...
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i really wish there were more going on right now. i'm struggling with just being alone with myself. i always feel like i...
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tuna is the greatest thing ever. can't get enough of it.
trying to decide what movie to go see. not much interests me anymore when it comes to movies. well, really its that they are so expensive and you have to sit there through a thousand previews. i hate it. it stinks. but i need something to do, this weekend has been extremely boring. when...
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trying to decide what movie to go see. not much interests me anymore when it comes to movies. well, really its that they are so expensive and you have to sit there through a thousand previews. i hate it. it stinks. but i need something to do, this weekend has been extremely boring. when...
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i'm such a lazy ass.
slept until one today. got up and did nothing for a couple of hours. now i'm going to the gym to workout and then who knows. no big plans for the weekend except for meetings and church. i am planning on going to visit my dad next weekend in nashville. that should be fun. but this weekend? nada. might go...
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slept until one today. got up and did nothing for a couple of hours. now i'm going to the gym to workout and then who knows. no big plans for the weekend except for meetings and church. i am planning on going to visit my dad next weekend in nashville. that should be fun. but this weekend? nada. might go...
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evilmonkeymuffin:
I don't know about you, but I always cherish those boring moments.
Too often there's too damn much going on. I love boredom.!
Enjoy the peace!
Too often there's too damn much going on. I love boredom.!
Enjoy the peace!
i've gotta slow down my spending.
no job yet.
still spending money.
not a good combination.
i'm reading seven types of ambiguity right now by elliot perlman. i love the way he writes. can't wait to finish it. next up will be train by pete dexter. then lunar park by bret easton ellis. who knows after that. i really shouldn't plan ahead what books i'm...
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no job yet.
still spending money.
not a good combination.
i'm reading seven types of ambiguity right now by elliot perlman. i love the way he writes. can't wait to finish it. next up will be train by pete dexter. then lunar park by bret easton ellis. who knows after that. i really shouldn't plan ahead what books i'm...
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