damn, the weather has been incredible here. i feel like it's spring already. i went running outside last night and it felt absolutely awesome. nice and warm, but not too warm. rec league softball starts in march, and i am seriously pumped up for that. i'm probably building myself up for a let down, cause the weather will probably get shitty at least one more...
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boy am i feeling restless. i really, really need to find a job, my backup funds are running low. i've been looking for about two weeks now, but i haven't been looking as hard as i should. i know what kind of work i don't want to do: food service. i hate it. i've done a lot of it and i really don't want to...
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ferrara:
Food service is the devils work.. I work in a restaurant and nothing drains me more then a weekend at that place. And if your not into a relationship, I'm sure your not alone there are alot of great girls out there that are wanting the exact same things as you are, dont rush into anything, because once your in backing out is a mess. Hope everything works out for ya bud 
weareallmaddhere:
you know what is always a good paying job!!! hitman!! 
and if ur in real trouble i can pay you to kill me off to get you started...unfortunately i cant spread the word of your skills after that tho hehe
and if ur in real trouble i can pay you to kill me off to get you started...unfortunately i cant spread the word of your skills after that tho hehe
eating birthday cake. and no i don't know anybody who's having a birthday. me and my buddy decided we needed cake though. damn good. hopefully we'll do something fun tonight.
omd.
omd.
pooped. just got done at the gym. had my best night in a while. i've been doing drop-sets on atleast one exercise a night, which is hell, but hits helped me get through some plateaus. now its off to my homegroup meeting. i was assured by a certain ex-girlfriend that she wouldn't be there tonight.
not much else to update. just looking forward to having...
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ferrara:
glad to see everything is back on track. Enjoy your weekend 
evilmonkeymuffin:
Have a grand ole weekend.
Peace!
Peace!
oww. my stomach is killing me. i hate protein shakes. i've been eating 1.5 grams of protein per pound of bodyweight a day for 2-3 months now. its starting to get really old. thats a lot of protein (240g). i mean, its paying off and everything, i've definitely put on a lot of muscle, its just hard to keep doing it when half the time...
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user304975207:
good for you replacing bad things with the good.
blah blah blah. boring ass day. just got back from coffee with a friend. i feel that i'm stuck in neutral. i have moments of extreme motivation that are followed by hours of complacency.
the only thing that is exciting to me right now is working out and the prospects of joining a new band in the near future. i'd settle for just about anything...
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the only thing that is exciting to me right now is working out and the prospects of joining a new band in the near future. i'd settle for just about anything...
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posthummusly:
let me know what you play. my buddy's band was looking for some people but i dont know what exactly for. they are straight up punk like strung out and shit. and they are actually pretty damn good. anyway ill talk to him and see what he is looking for.
user304975207:
why is it so much easier to remember the negative things?
hmm. i've been slacking on updates, so here goes.
on sunday pretty much all i did was go to church. well actually thats not true. i led an aa meeting at a local crisis center. it was the first time i'd been there and boy was there some pain to be seen. pretty much everyone there was just coming off a recent suicide attempt, which...
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on sunday pretty much all i did was go to church. well actually thats not true. i led an aa meeting at a local crisis center. it was the first time i'd been there and boy was there some pain to be seen. pretty much everyone there was just coming off a recent suicide attempt, which...
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boy did the shit hit the fan last night. after i'd just started feeling better about the girl mess, guess who shows up at the AA meeting i go to friday night with the dude she was seeing behind my back? man, i was pissed. she sent me a text message later saying she was sorry and that she didn't know that i went to...
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evilmonkeymuffin:
That bites.
Relationships are a tonne of work especially in early recovery.
Keep the Faith brother!
Relationships are a tonne of work especially in early recovery.
Keep the Faith brother!
ahh. finally went to the gym again today. i'd taken off the past 4 days. feel MUCH better now. endorphins rule! anywho, gotta go to sleep so i can get up early tomorrow and see my therapist. should be fun. lots to talk about.
just got done watching the zao "lesser lights of heaven" dvd. pretty damned awesome! can't wait to see them next month....
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just got done watching the zao "lesser lights of heaven" dvd. pretty damned awesome! can't wait to see them next month....
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venna:
Yes, endorphins are amazing. Though I drag my ass to the gym every other day, I never regret it afterwards.
And what DVD are you watching exactly? Never heard of it....
And what DVD are you watching exactly? Never heard of it....
finally. i feel like i'm turning the corner. actually slept last night. feeling hungry again. hopefully this will last. i'm so happy to have the friends around me that i do.
time to get moving.
omd.
time to get moving.
omd.
ferrara:
With the right kinda friends, all your little problems will seem less significant.. way to go.. keep moving!! 
Thanks for the vote of confidence. This week, I'm not so sure myself.
Take it easy!