outlawtrick

Things have been kind of weird lately, maybe its vacation maybe its other things. Made up with my ex, not really sure if we're in a relationship or not, things are still kind of cloudy. Shes not very keen to the fact that I'm always gone for long periods of time do to work. But I think this last little trip will be the last one I make. It hurts me to say that I'm worried about her being faithful while I'm gone, and if she does I might bring our relationship to another level, but like I said things are still very cloudy right now. I know she loves me and as much as it pains me to say I love her too, but I'm emotionally frustrated and in fear of getting hurt so it makes things harder....I think I'm going to go get drunk.


P.S. That last entre, it turns out she was joking but it was still pretty fucked up to say.