oubliette1

well wow. there's really only a few things worth mentioning. One is what a complete moron I am....and how much I enjoy it. So last night I hung out with Mike (fucking) Fenton, Jaime, and Blaine. We drank. More importantly, I drank a lot. I think i threw up on Rachels pants. Sorry Rae, I'll wash them. At the end of the night I ended up passed out in Blaine's bed. But then woke up and couldn't get back to sleep. As the night went on and I got more sober....yeahs. more yeahs. Fuck. At one point Blaine was holding me and telling me that he felt like such an asshole 'cause he didn't want to lead me on, and there had to be something wrong with him because of how great I am. I told him he wasn't leading me on, that I knew perfectly well that I shouldn't expect anything from him, and that I wasn't making him choose. I still think if he asked I would date him, and I don't want a relationship with ANYBODY. I hope last night doesn't complicate things. We woke up and everything seemed to be normal...aside from the slight hangover. I threw up at my ortho appointment. I REALLY like Blaine. But I am happy as his friend. Never-the-less if we hook up one more time, I can't be with any other guys. While it's not a relationship, I can't be with more than one person romantically at a time....I think the last 2 times I was with Blaine it was rather serendipidous.