I decided to go into the new year with no expectations. Every year that I try to make some sort of goal or resolution, it never usually comes to fruition. Well, that was the possibly one the best decisions I have made! So many exciting new things are starting to happen.
First off, I can not wait to submit the set that I shot with @maud at the Orlando shootfest!!! Holy cow, I have looked at that thing at least 100 times since she sent it me! This lady. Before we shot, we both sat down by the pool and took some slow meditating breaths. It was as if my shell literally broke around me. I kinda blocked out my anxiety and had so much fun! I felt like a real pinup, it really sunk in how amazing and surreal everything was. My confidence has been soaring every since. Thank you Maud for everything! I hope you know how inspiring you are!
Here is a sneak peek at the magic that truly happened! (: <3 I absolutely love it, and I really hope you all do tooo!!!
Also! I am currently awaiting a phone call back about a Funeral Director/Embalmer Internship!!!! EEKKK!! I can't believe it's finally happening. I feel like I just started school. I graduate in about a year, but I am thinking about continuing to enroll in some online classes to get a bit closer to a Master's in Pathology. The more bodies that I embalm, the more I am interested in what caused the death. I want to investigate it and dig further that just the arteries. So, I may stay in school after graduation and get that Master's degree! Still will be a FD/embalmer but take some online classes to get closer, since I only have an Associate's.
On top of all of that exciting stuffs, my lady and I are planning an anniversary trip to Colorado! I talked about this in one of my previous blogs, but it will be to see Hanging Tree Lake! We had talked about it, but I never expected to really happen, but it's starting to look like we can really make it happen. I am so excited!! I have never been able to travel much and now I want to explore the world!
Ya'll. Not too long ago; I was living out of my car, had just flunked out of college, and basically had nothing to look forward to. Oh how the turntables have turned. (Michael Scott, Dunder Mifflin) I have so much to look forward to and I am truly the happiest I have ever been.
Being a part of this community has lifted my confidence in so many ways. I have met some amazing humans from around the world and none of that would have happened without Suicide Girls. I have pushed myself to do things that normally my anxiety would never allow me to do. I feel this fire starting to grow that has never been lit before. If this is what confidence feels like, I want more of it. I want to fuel this fire and go on every adventure that sparks from it. I can't wait to shoot again! Not sure when I will, but I already can't wait! I am still riding the confidence from the set that @maud shot of me, everytime I look at it, I feel it again. I can't wait to see how far I will grow as a Hopeful!
Thank you Suicide Girls!
