ororomunroe

On Tuesday I scheduled a meeting with my boss to discuss a salary increase. Unfortunately she is ill and has been off since tuesday afternoon. My nerves are getting the best of me. I have never asked for a raise before, and frankly 'm not confident enough with my skills to be asking for one. I have been there for almost two years, and I do work tremendously hard. I'm hoping that I will get one. If I didn't absolutely need one I wouldnt even ask.

My company has also been laying people off since the summer, and it has scared me even more out of asking. I kind of just feel fortunate to even have a job in this shit economy.

ALSO my sister may be moving back home in the spring, so that will have me looking for a new place to live. I'm fairly excited about that. I like my place, but only becuase i'm living with her. I would never live here on my own. When we first moved in, I wanted to leave asap. But it has grown on me. I hope to find something in walking, or at least biking distance of my job.

Right now I have to streetcar for an hour in the morning, its making me lose the will to live.

I dont know why I'm so afraid right now. I use to jump in with both feet and ride things out. And if i failed, no biggy. I figured i was no worse off. Nothing to lose. Do i have more to lose now? Not really.
I need to get that back. Fun, free, happy go lucky.
I'm old.

anyways, that being said, I might have to dig through some thrift store and find some vintage looking furniture to pull together look that looks like this for my new place





I could refinish and reappoulster it myself (a little silver paint), I'm sick of living like a student!

I want glamour damnit!