in many pacific countries the fear of death is almost nonexistent. there's a sayign that if a man is biten by a poisonious snake he doesnt run to the hospitial or attempt any aid to/for himself he sits and mediates waiting for death.
the tibetan book of the dead would be a good casual read for those type of courses
hope all is well

Thanks for the welcome back. It is so good to see so many people I knew are still here. I am glad that you came back too.

It is amazing here. The part of Japan I line in probably isn't what most people think of Japan being like, but it is the most beautiful place I have ever seen. And I love it here despite some of the hardships. Or maybe because of them. I love how self sufficient we are. And the solitude that is never more than a few minutes away.

I never thought I would. I thought I would miss the hectic life I once lived.

Ok, you probably don't remember asking me this, it was a long time ago, but I am answering all the old questions people asked me, so here goes.

There was a time when I was sure I would never want children. But the older I get the less sure I am. I think I might. And the man I am with now would make a perfect father. But I don't love him. Or more accurately I am not in love with him. The only man I have ever been in love with is half a world away. And is still married to someone else. And I can't imagine having any child that is not his.

I thought i would come by and say hi to ya have not heard from ya in a while heh.

Sounds to me that this person affected you in more ways than one.

In a good way of course.

I am glad that you are feeling positive about the changes that are coming. Frequently, that is the most important thing!

feliz ano nuevo!
bonne annee!
im so glad things are beginning to fall into place for you now. just keep a positive attitude...if all else fails, throw a tantrum!

hey stranger. how was xmas, new years, & have your classes started yet? i hope all is well with you.

Your request was granted. I feel so special

YAY! Yeah I have to go back to school in January as well. So are you stateside now?

Have a good break. Hope it helps you resolve things.

happy thoughts coming your way all day, everyday!

esta aqui

no need for you to struggle. one child on your own is bad enough, but 2? if your place in the relationship is not to his liking...lemme shut up. have fun in all your travels thru the us. welcome home btw...

peace...

you in nc yet? if you are, strap on some galloshes & waders. youll need them if youre walking to class. you in school yet?

I think most people have those thoughts during random encounters with strangers. I don't think you should feel like a perv at all.

And that wasn't vulgar. Erotic yes. But not at all vulgar. Pretty poetic if you ask me.