ormunroe

I feel that this journal has stopped being used for the purpose it should be and has turned into yet another way for people to see that I am 'nice'. Most people want to be thought of as nice and kind, what have you, but I don't want what I write to be censored according to what I think will be perceived as vulgar, mean, or weird.

Of course in real life it is good to be aware of the perceptions of others (to an extent) but this is my personal domain and I'm tired of trying to carry all of the supposed perceptions of people that read my journal.

So beginning today I am going to try and make this journal into what I originally wanted it to be.
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The thought of not being with a woman again kills me. I can't describe completely how it feels to have the weight and softness of a breast in your hand, rolling your tongue around a nipple, or the incredible warmth and wet of having fingers inside a woman. I don't like giving head...it's just not appealing to me. The taste and feel in my mouth doesn't do anything for me but eating a woman out is heavenly and I miss that.

I miss soft, girl kisses and hugging with breasts pushing against each other.

I don't hate the penis. I enjoy rough sex in the various positions but that's about it as far as the penis. I found a stash of my husband's porn and it mostly consisted of 'cum shots' and bjs. It kinda made me sick to my stomach to watch until they came to a girl/girl scene. It didn't seem as fake and some of it you could actually tell wasn't being faked.

My husband doesn't want to have a threesome and thinking back on that, it is probably good that he doesn't because I would enjoy being with a woman more than I enjoy being with him sexually.

He told me he just recently got an anonymous SG account to look at the girls, not to read my journal. I guess since he's not mad, he's telling the truth.