Friday Apr 08, 2005

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Welcome to ormunroe's naughty thoughts/dreams...I will not get explicit, well, I don't anticipate getting explicit blush but I just wanted to share...you've been warned skull

For quite some time (in my continuing sex-free nights) I often dream of having threesomes. Oddly enough, the girl is always big-breasted. I've never really been into big breasts before but that apparently is changing. I'm usually in a position to be 'offering' her to the man or partaking of her delights myself (Ha!...what smut novel did my mind dredge that phrase up from!) But I always avoid the man, not his touch, but I avoid penetration. Perhaps, mimicking real life, you say? whatever

Have you ever been enthralled by someone's body? I mean, if you could immerse all of yourself into someone (not penis-wise) and have a never-ending cycle of pleasure, would you completely give up everything you are (in the heat of passion)? Have you ever touched and kissed and licked and smelled and held someone else and felt as if you could go insane from being with them...as if you hadn't the words of praise to speak for such an experience?

That is what my dreams bring to mind. I've felt like that before and it was with a woman. I'll always remember her fondly. blush miao!!

Ugh...enough blush whatever

The husband and I just finished watching 'Closer' and I thought it was a really good movie. He summed it up by saying, "They are all sluts." While it did show complicated relationships in quite a mess I wasn't really thinking like that. I've never told him about some of the things I did in college. He might slide me closer to the above description if I did. whatever *exits confessional and closes the door*
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rosehips:
I have been reading and rereading your two posts to me. Trying to come up with something helpful and supportive. Sometimes that seems like a difficult thing for me. To be honest, empathy is relatively new to me. I do want to help and support you in whatever you decide. I am just not very good at this. I keep second guessing myself. Starting over. Afraid I will say the wrong thing or not fully convey how much I sympathize with your situation. You have no idea how often I have thought about this. The situation you are in is so very similar to the one that "Roy" is in with his wife. I really can't say what I think you should do. All I can say is that I know how hard it is to stay in a relationship that is not fulfilling. It has been an incredible burden for Roy and made him in many ways a very unhappy man. It was also quite a burden for me to stay in a freindship that had become nothing but a source of heartache. Walking away was hard. Staying would have been harder. Not the same as ending a marriage, of course, but, it was, for me, more significant than any sexual relationship I ever had, and very difficult to end.

I do think, however, that there is nothing wrong with trying to get yourself on a better footing before you make any decisions. I don't think there is anything wrong with making sure you are in a good position before (if) you leave the marriage. And who knows maybe your mom will be right and while you are making the changes you need to make you will fall in love again.

I have felt tht way. Only once. I never got the chance to find out just how good it could be. One of my great regrets. The only person who ever got me excited with just a casual touch.

I wish I had more or better advice to offer you. I guess I will end with saying that you can't put other people's happiness before your own. In the end that just leaves everyone unhappy. I also think that you have to take risks and accept that sometimes people get hurt.

I truly hope you find a way to either mend your relationship or a way to part on good terms.

Sigh. I hope all this made some kind of sense.

[Edited on Apr 10, 2005 1:07AM]
zenichols:
I'm glad you're back to updating I was missing you when you came back to the states.

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