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I'm seriously considering picking back up my weed habit just so I don't have these fucking dreams anymore.

I used to smoke weed at least three times a day. I quit because it played havoc with my already fucked up system (pot doesn't exaclty help chronic fatigue... ). I would get so tired I would start to twitch. So, after years of daily use, I had to quit cold turkey when I had a full on fainting spell/spasm thing. Kind of like a seizure, but not as serious.

Anyway. After I quit, I started experimenting more with psychedelics and other "drugs." I started to have dreams that I could remember more frequently. Then, a few monthes ago, I did acid a few times, and ever since then, I've had really crazy dreams that seem to last for hours. They are really stressful, and I never feel like I get sufficient rest.

Now, this may not have anything to do with the acid, but I can definately pinpoint a change right after my first big dose.

I've smoked pot a few times since then, and those are the nights I can actually sleep without disturbance. I probably shouldn't start smoking again, just because of the risks involved, but it's just so goddamn tempting. My sleep is precious to me, and I'm fucking sick of these dreams. Might as well call them nightmares. Fuck nightmares. I'm tired of them. And going to the doctor for sleep medication is just out of the question. Look a few entires back, I think I wrote about why. All I have to say about that is: FUCK INSURANCE COMPANIES

So. I'm in a really bad mood because of the dreams.

It's my boyfriend's mom's birthday today. Going to go get her a present soon.

meh.