i need to learn to be more assertive. i'm totally assertive with people i'm close to...but with say, co-workers, i'm pretty passive. 
yesterday david was being a shit to me, and i didn't say anything. kate came up to me later and told me she yelled at him for me. 
i'm such chicken shit.
man. it's embarassing to admit that. i don't know. sarcasm can be intimidating if it's directed at me. and sarcasm should be david's middle name.
what ever happened to being sincere? isn't it much harder to be an asshole?
"...each of us is dominated by history: the past lies upon us like a dead hand, guiding and controlling as if from the grave. At the same time as it gives the individual a conception of herself, an "identity," it piles weight upon her that she must fight to shake off if she is to remain light and free enough to continue reinventing herself. It is the same for the artist: even the most challenging innovations eventually become crutches and cliches. Once an artist has come up with one good solution for a creative problem, it is hard for her to break free of it to conceive of other possible solutions."http://www.crimethinc.com/library/english/deadhand.html
i discovered crimethinc. when i was thirteen. it pretty much saved my life. i was in complete despair, but i somehow came across one of their zines, and it helped me realize that i don't need to act according to convention. among other things. for a while, i took what they said too literally, and didn't think enough about it to come up with my own ideas (give me a break, i was 13). i finally realized that none of it means a thing if you can't apply it to your own life, and come up with your own solutions. anyway. that quote above is something i really need to put into practice right now.
byebye
yesterday david was being a shit to me, and i didn't say anything. kate came up to me later and told me she yelled at him for me. i'm such chicken shit.
man. it's embarassing to admit that. i don't know. sarcasm can be intimidating if it's directed at me. and sarcasm should be david's middle name.
what ever happened to being sincere? isn't it much harder to be an asshole?
"...each of us is dominated by history: the past lies upon us like a dead hand, guiding and controlling as if from the grave. At the same time as it gives the individual a conception of herself, an "identity," it piles weight upon her that she must fight to shake off if she is to remain light and free enough to continue reinventing herself. It is the same for the artist: even the most challenging innovations eventually become crutches and cliches. Once an artist has come up with one good solution for a creative problem, it is hard for her to break free of it to conceive of other possible solutions."http://www.crimethinc.com/library/english/deadhand.html
i discovered crimethinc. when i was thirteen. it pretty much saved my life. i was in complete despair, but i somehow came across one of their zines, and it helped me realize that i don't need to act according to convention. among other things. for a while, i took what they said too literally, and didn't think enough about it to come up with my own ideas (give me a break, i was 13). i finally realized that none of it means a thing if you can't apply it to your own life, and come up with your own solutions. anyway. that quote above is something i really need to put into practice right now.
byebye
ps. i know hoe you feel with the job thing...i wish i had as much balls at work as i do at play.
XXX-OH!