Grief does funny things to you. Lately I'll be driving down the road, listening to some music, and the next thing I know, the song I was listening to is over, and I'm nearly at my destination. It's kind of frightening. I know that I obviously drove that far, so I must not have been driving badly or endangering anyone, but it's still very eerie. This is also very odd because normally music is one of the only things that can hold my attention. 
And I don't even have any thoughts that I can recall during that blank space.
This has happened before. It's not really a new thing. But it's definately strange. Does anyone else get this?
I talked to hayley on the phone yesterday. She is shocked, and definately grieving, but I'm amazed at her strength. She's 17 and her mother is dead. Wow. I keep running over this and other details that would probably be better to just try not to think about. I keep thinking of Faye slumped over the wheel of her car, with Debbie (the dog) right next to her. Apparently she had pictures of Hayley and Elissa and other family covering the dash. This makes me cry every time I think about it. Aaron (Hayley's dad) is taking it the worst. He spent 24 years with Faye.
They are cleaning out her house now. Most of the stuff that they moved from Hayley's house was where the movers dropped it. Everything is a mess. There's a shack in the back yard that is filled with overdue library books. I mean thousands of them. The weird thing is, i remember seeing a lot of them when I was up visiting them years ago. Grocery bags full of library books. She'd been taking them for years.
On the positive side: she left them two cars. One is a Mustang. They need money. So it's not all bad, I guess. Hayley wanted to find her wedding dress, but she couldn't. I wonder what Faye did with it.
I might go to Portland to see Hayley. Or she might come down here. I was planning on a trip up there this summer, but I had no idea it would turn into this.
I'm feeling a little better lately. Today I'm going in to work to help put labels on invitations to our "Veterinary Open House" thingy. We're going to have a "dog olympics" put on by the agility group in the area. lol
yet another rediculous human custom. Oh well it's going to be fun. I really love most of my co-workers. They are so great. It's going to be fun, and I'm going to get paid for putting stickers on things. 
If anyone lives in the Santa Cruz/San Jose area and has a pet, you should come. It's at The Wilson Veterinary Hospital on July 24th. I think I've posted the address in a past journal entry.
whoa
And I don't even have any thoughts that I can recall during that blank space.
This has happened before. It's not really a new thing. But it's definately strange. Does anyone else get this?
I talked to hayley on the phone yesterday. She is shocked, and definately grieving, but I'm amazed at her strength. She's 17 and her mother is dead. Wow. I keep running over this and other details that would probably be better to just try not to think about. I keep thinking of Faye slumped over the wheel of her car, with Debbie (the dog) right next to her. Apparently she had pictures of Hayley and Elissa and other family covering the dash. This makes me cry every time I think about it. Aaron (Hayley's dad) is taking it the worst. He spent 24 years with Faye.
They are cleaning out her house now. Most of the stuff that they moved from Hayley's house was where the movers dropped it. Everything is a mess. There's a shack in the back yard that is filled with overdue library books. I mean thousands of them. The weird thing is, i remember seeing a lot of them when I was up visiting them years ago. Grocery bags full of library books. She'd been taking them for years.
On the positive side: she left them two cars. One is a Mustang. They need money. So it's not all bad, I guess. Hayley wanted to find her wedding dress, but she couldn't. I wonder what Faye did with it.
I might go to Portland to see Hayley. Or she might come down here. I was planning on a trip up there this summer, but I had no idea it would turn into this.
I'm feeling a little better lately. Today I'm going in to work to help put labels on invitations to our "Veterinary Open House" thingy. We're going to have a "dog olympics" put on by the agility group in the area. lol
yet another rediculous human custom. Oh well it's going to be fun. I really love most of my co-workers. They are so great. It's going to be fun, and I'm going to get paid for putting stickers on things.
If anyone lives in the Santa Cruz/San Jose area and has a pet, you should come. It's at The Wilson Veterinary Hospital on July 24th. I think I've posted the address in a past journal entry.
whoa
tadzi:
sorry i missed you last night...you seem to be doing better, but my offer still stands.