So right after I I wrote that last journal entry I wrote about hating interaction with others, I had a night full of experiences that completely compounded that and made me want to never, ever come out of my house again. The grossest example follows:
The 7-11 man tried to molest me. I think he was cracked out or something, becuase he was acting fucking nuts, and his eyes were completely red. Anyway, I went in there by myself to get some watermelon gummies, and he started asking my my name, telling me I'm a "very pretty girl, with pretty hair," and he fondled my hand when he gave me my change. Then he followed me out to my car saying really weird shit that I couldn't entirely understand because I was freaking the fuck out. I got into my car really fast and almost caused a car accident peeling out of there.
That was by far the grossest, creepiest thing that's happened to me for along time. I fucking hate people. I really do.
What I'm most pissed off about is I didn't even yell at him or anything. Which in hindsight is what I really, really wish I would have done. I just wasn't thinking about it. I was thinking about getting my ass away from the scary 7-11 man.
Things I hate:
- creepy experiences like the one above
- being gutless chickenshit and hating myself for it later
- running out of my favorite tea
- never being able to hang out with my friend sally, no matter how carefully coordinated our plans are. she looks so much like Miesha it's scary. which means she's hot. and she's cool. and funny as fuck. and i miss her.
- favorite jeans dying.
- wet shoes without socks.
Things I like:
- October. FINALLY
- that i can see the stars really clearly when i get home every night. such is not the case in san jose. up here, though, its completely clear and gorgeous.
- the tea that i ran out of.
- making clothes for myself.
- the apple and cherry trees in my yard
- my little car. vrooom!
- my cats
- the book i'm reading right now.
Things I miss:
- two of my teachers: Kevin and Cathie. I really have to go see them soon, or else Cathie will be gone and having her baby.
- sex. even though i have a boyfriend.
- my friend hayley.
Ok that's all for now. That was wayyy long. 
The 7-11 man tried to molest me. I think he was cracked out or something, becuase he was acting fucking nuts, and his eyes were completely red. Anyway, I went in there by myself to get some watermelon gummies, and he started asking my my name, telling me I'm a "very pretty girl, with pretty hair," and he fondled my hand when he gave me my change. Then he followed me out to my car saying really weird shit that I couldn't entirely understand because I was freaking the fuck out. I got into my car really fast and almost caused a car accident peeling out of there.
That was by far the grossest, creepiest thing that's happened to me for along time. I fucking hate people. I really do.
What I'm most pissed off about is I didn't even yell at him or anything. Which in hindsight is what I really, really wish I would have done. I just wasn't thinking about it. I was thinking about getting my ass away from the scary 7-11 man.
Things I hate:
- creepy experiences like the one above
- being gutless chickenshit and hating myself for it later
- running out of my favorite tea
- never being able to hang out with my friend sally, no matter how carefully coordinated our plans are. she looks so much like Miesha it's scary. which means she's hot. and she's cool. and funny as fuck. and i miss her.
- favorite jeans dying.
- wet shoes without socks.
Things I like:
- October. FINALLY
- that i can see the stars really clearly when i get home every night. such is not the case in san jose. up here, though, its completely clear and gorgeous.
- the tea that i ran out of.
- making clothes for myself.
- the apple and cherry trees in my yard
- my little car. vrooom!
- my cats
- the book i'm reading right now.
Things I miss:
- two of my teachers: Kevin and Cathie. I really have to go see them soon, or else Cathie will be gone and having her baby.
- sex. even though i have a boyfriend.
- my friend hayley.
Ok that's all for now. That was wayyy long.