orli

i need to learn to be more assertive. i'm totally assertive with people i'm close to...but with say, co-workers, i'm pretty passive. yesterday david was being a shit to me, and i didn't say anything. kate came up to me later and told me she yelled at him for me. i'm such chicken shit.
man. it's embarassing to admit that. i don't know. sarcasm can...
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super tired again today. i've been so fucking lethargic lately. you know that seasonal depression thing, where people usually get sad when it's all rainy and wintery? i'm kind of the opposite. i don't survive in heat. or light. i wilt and die. i look like a mole if i go outside during the summer, unless i have huge sunglasses on.
my aunt procaimed not...
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tired tired tired. the last two nights i've slept at my boy's house. it was nice.

last night i got a little bit tipsy for the first time in a long time. i don't really smoke pot anymore, but my boyfriend has a new bubbler, so...i had to try it. it was nice. i also had some hard lemonade (haha) so i was feeling pretty...
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in a few minutes i'm going to get my mouth checked out. probably have my stitches taken out. woohoo.

i haven't done anything for the last two days. at all. and i'm out of vicodin, so my jaw hurts like a bitch.
whaaaa

i'm thinking of getting a new piercing. i was inspired by Cherry's new set. i really love her septum. i like how...
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fuck being home alone.

blargh.

i was up all night. it was crazy and terrible. i had to go find my friend in boulder creek, drunk as a skunk. she hit her head, and the people she was with wouldn't let her call her mom or me. and shit got out of hand. thank goodness i found her. i have been up ever since.

people are crazy, and i...
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so i'm adding more because i have nothing better to do. i tried reading, but this vicodin shit makes me so tired it is too difficult. especially the book i am reading now. it has not fucking paragraphs, so my eyes lose their place. heh.

i'm going to santa cruz today if i can drag my ass out of the house. beach air would do...
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yes, the wisdom teeth sillies.

stitches like whoa in the back of my mouth. very uncomfortable. what is more, i am being forced to go to the mall today. that's why i'm up so early (for me). my mom has been declaring for weeks that i look like a "raggamuffin," so i said "FINE, MOM, THEN BUY ME SOME CLOTHES!" so now we are going...
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ouch ouch ouch. teeth are out.

had my wisdom teeth out today. its pretty difficult to type this.

i feel like shit. blech. no eating real food for a weekish. i am also on a lot of vicodin, and still recovering form the diazapam, so please don't expect this to make any sense.

i get yummy miso soup for dinner though. if i can eat it with the four gaping holes...
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angry.
not in a good mood at all.

today i need to go get retainers for my monroe and nostril. for the wisdom teeth removal. i usually go to Staircase Tattoo in santa cruz to get pierced, but i'm not sure i like it there anymore.

everytime i go in there, i have to make a huge effort just to get the person who is...
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