oriole

I'm numb to the world. I barely feel sad. I don't know anyone here or otherwise. I don't know how to make or have friends. I never learned. My anxiety taught me that I can't like anything in fear of being different. I don't like anyone or thing. I don't know how to change this. No one here will read this either. I feel like I've been stabbed in the fucking chest. I feel like I'm stoned minus the high. I'm in a fog, a haze. I still and forever will love him. I can tell from how he looks at me that he did and does. I'm going to end up alone or with someone I don't really like.