Friday Jul 29, 2005

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so i decided today that i'm going to stop shaving.....



















I'M KIDDING, I'M KIDDING!!!!! tongue




going to see system of a down and the mars volta next friday night, fuck yes
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thelibra:
shaving is annoying. get waxed.
williamj:
im sorry i didnt respond to your text message on my phone. i dont know how to work anything put the answer and hang up buttons on that thing confused whatever frown

Thursday Jul 28, 2005

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i have an overwhelming lack of support from my friends.

me: "i want to change my life for the better. i want to forgive, i want to live for others, i want to let go of selfishness. i want to be healthy. i want to give up drink and drugs. i want to be pure"

my friends: "thats stupid"




thanks guys mad











final conclusion?
i have...
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cunninglinquist:
you want to change, you see the need, now start by changing your friends, and see if that helps you on your goal.
williamj:
good luck with the life changing. please dont become a hippy blackeyed

Tuesday Jul 26, 2005

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feeling good

after the surge of engery i had last night, i'm feeling good.
doing the right thing is invigorating. <3

i made myself a list, and i've researched some simple meditations and yoga salutes.

i'm pretty amped about my deciding to continue my search for spirituality.
growing up in a religiously oppressive family messed me up for most of my life. i never wanted...
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zaksmith:
Be aware of false prophets, which
come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves
zaksmith:
...hippie

Monday Jul 25, 2005

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i'm on the verge of something big
<3
biggrin blush
cunninglinquist:
let us know how it works out.

Monday Jul 25, 2005

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i danced all night last night





shedding skin<3









i'm very very very sore today, however.....hahaha blackeyed
cunninglinquist:
i dont recall being sore from dancing, it has been that long since i went out and did that, glad you had fun.
williamj:
i wish i could dance

Sunday Jul 24, 2005

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i feel nothing
not safe
its a hard day for dreaming
again
...
i'm not going back to the assholes that made me such a random display of random acts of hopelessness
cunninglinquist:
whatever you choose, feel good about it.
boxofficepoison:
I love how dudes, and chicks with boyfriends score really well on my test, and hot chicks score really low. I think I might need to revise it.

Thursday Jul 21, 2005

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my nose is runny
i think i'm getting sick

dying from suspence (am i moving or not???)
dying from lonliness
not romantically...cosmically

life is crazy right now, as always....

i know most of you are just like, eh, whatever, that zombee is always bitching and making her life harder than it needs to be


which is probably true.



i crave having a place in this...
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cunninglinquist:
i crave having a place in this world, a purpose, i want to know that someday i'll have kids, and a job, and a life
we all do
williamj:
you will find your place soon enough. it usually pops up when you least expect it

Sunday Jul 17, 2005

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so today at work this woman came in. piss drunk, sobbing.....make up streaming down her face, hands shaking....

im not exactly sure what was wrong. i sat down and spoke to her, but i could barely understand most of what she said to me.

all i got was my husband.........im so upset......never before......i cant go home.........i never get loaded, im sorry....im sorry
that's about it....
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cunninglinquist:
sometimes it takes something like your experience to put your life in proper perspective. i think of some of the things i have seen in vegas, where a gambling husband can cause a myriad of problems, he looses his job, then the family gets evicted, they are living in their car, and the wife tries panhandling for cash for her and the kids to eat, and then turns to sex because her kids have to eat. it happened to one of my neighbors, she was like 19 with a 1 year old, he was in his 20's and lost it all.

Thursday Jul 14, 2005

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okay, so the aforementioned VACA, might be a MOVE





again, 'it's in the works"




myheart is going BOOMBOOMBOOM



its where i wanted to be in the first place...
why i came here is beyond me.
cunninglinquist:
what ever you decide, good luck
williamj:
good luck with everything smile

Thursday Jul 14, 2005

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aug 20-27th- ZomBee in austin?




its in the works <3




i need a vaca
cunninglinquist:
that is the week I head to Littleton CO, have a good trip
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