Tuesday Feb 10, 2004

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Only tomorrow left, and then I'm back to work. eeek Found out today the job is sending me to a shrink, just to make sure I'm safe shocked

Trying to stay happy. I have a feeling its going to get allot harder frown

Still got my ickle ray of sunshine though smile Get the train!!
dollfac3:
He he thanks....... miao!!
nixxx:
Why is your job sending you to see a shrink?!

=x=

Saturday Feb 07, 2004

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Nixxx great photos wink Don't make us wait so long for the next set will you kiss

Going back to work on Thursday. Feeling really nervous about it. Spend all day today playing on my computer. Great way to avoid thinking about anything.

Really looking forward to meeting up with someone very soon (I hope tongue), that should bring a ray of sunshine. smile

Better make the most...
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nixxx:
LOL yea I'm the same with exercise - I haven't done any in sooooo long I think I've forgotten how!! eeek

=x=
squiggle:
Hey there honeypot...how ya doin?

:kisses:

Wednesday Feb 04, 2004

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Hello smile

Yesterday was a good day. Spent most of it in bed recovering from the night before blush

Took a trip into Basildon to see the counselling service I'd been refered too. First meeting was just an assessment, so I haven't meet my counsellor yet. Thats going to be the crunch time. Have to have someone I get on with, or it will be difficult.

Got...
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nixxx:
*drools* DAMN YOU NOW I REALLY WANT SOME PARTY RINGS!!!! tongue

LOL

I've seen Leon, its a fucking good film innit!?

=x=
squiggle:
kiss

Monday Feb 02, 2004

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Life seems to be good.

Taxed my car today frown = overdraft

Going out tonight too. Can't afford it, but I'm not missing this for anything!

Tonight

Should be going back to work very soon too. Very nervous about it, but I need to get back into it, before it becomes impossible.

Hope everyones good smile
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daisie:
have fun tonight sweetie biggrin
dollfac3:
Did you have a good night sweetie??? miao!!

Saturday Jan 31, 2004

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Tonight:

Vodka and Coke

Chocolate

A good film (Johnn English) I thought it was funny!

Chatting to a gorgeous girl on MSN

Does life get any better?

If I meet her I think it might smile

Tomorrow:

Playing fireman with my brother.

I "work" for a company which provides fire/rescue cover for motor racing. Should be a good meeting.

I'm a little tipsy, yer, just a...
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jora:
You get major points for mentioning the song from Watership Down in the Depression Group.

*Points, Points, Points!!!*

smile

Friday Jan 30, 2004

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What have I done today?

I went and got some new shirts for work from the clothing stores, and thats about it frown

I've eaten 200g of chocolate, and listened to Lacuna Coil, and Within Temptation instead of the Bluegrass today.

Put the throw I got from Camden yesterday on my sofa. Looks quite good. Should be easier to wash than the sofa covers.

What an...
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dollfac3:
Have you seen my south park me in my pics section???? miao!! kiss
lysistrata:
hey... no I wasn't looking for a tatoo artist but yes I am near Brentwood.

I too have a southpark me...smile

Thursday Jan 29, 2004

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Today, I'm still feeling good. Not as good as Monday, but still good. Got my car MOT'd today, it passed with no work. Not bad for a K reg!

Went into Camden for a look around. It was very quiet today, probably something to do with the weather. I brought a throw for my sofa, and nothing else frown Some guy tried to sell me a...
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squiggle:
When is the fireplace inviting me?!
daisie:
Awww your such a sweetie kiss

Monday Jan 26, 2004

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Today, I am feeling allot better than I have in a long time. I think the drugs might be starting to work! biggrin

About time!

I was told on Friday, that it was very possible, that I would loose my job, if I didn't come back soon. After breaking down, and being rather upset for a while, I did something about it. Today I think may...
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dollfac3:
No the dog is not clean yet. boo hoo.......
I found drugs did not work for me personally, hate drugs, or counselling but went to a phsychotherapist which was cool and really helped me....... infact now I counsel others!!!! Lol Counselling is a bit weird in that you cant really tell someone whats right or if how they feel is right etc whereas phsychotherapists actually can due to being qaulified to do so, so if the counselling feels too one sided then maybe ask to see someone different like that???
I am an all good happy person now so there is hope for everyone if I can do it!!!lol xxx hugs xxx wink miao!!
meatwad:
mmmmmmmmmmmm drugs.....

I hope theyre legal!!! tongue

ARRR!!!

Thursday Jan 22, 2004

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Today I have been mostly feeling ill... puke

Last night was a good night. Went out with some people from work into London. Got very, very drunk. There's part of last night that I really don't remember. Found a ticket from The RoadHouse, I can't remember any of it frown

Got onto TV last night smile SGUK Link

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clearbrightfire:
*waits*

nothing yet
dollfac3:
ha ha see I am faster than you wiv the hobnob come back...... ha ha ha ha

Monday Jan 19, 2004

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Haven't written in this for a while. Same miserable thoughts going though my mind at the moment. Don't want to start repeating myself.

Missing my Ex, and her son loads, or am I just missing the company? Wish I knew for sure.

Joined the "depression outlet" group today. Good to know I'm not the only one feeling the way I do. Hopefully things will get...
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kittencore:
:big hugs:
I know how it feels to be going through a shitty time, but just try and remember things WILL get better.
Stay strong xxx
dimslimjim:
dude you werent on the news were you? i swear bbc 1, interviewing ppl in a pub about weekly lads mags....

sorry if i may be wrong.

spater
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