Today, I am feeling allot better than I have in a long time. I think the drugs might be starting to work! 
About time!
I was told on Friday, that it was very possible, that I would loose my job, if I didn't come back soon. After breaking down, and being rather upset for a while, I did something about it. Today I think may have made a difference too. I went and talked to my training officer about what was going on, and I felt like a different person.
Started to sort out some counselling sessions too, I really feeling like I might be starting to get somewhere. It feels really strange. Happiness, or any emotion for that matter isn't something I've felt in a while. I looking forward to being the person I'm supposed to be.
If this doesn't make sense to anyone, I'm not suprised. Its hard to describe how such seemingly normal things become so difficult when you suffer from depression, and how such little things can seem mean so much when I've achieved them!
Maybe I'll be able to sleep now too?...
About time!
I was told on Friday, that it was very possible, that I would loose my job, if I didn't come back soon. After breaking down, and being rather upset for a while, I did something about it. Today I think may have made a difference too. I went and talked to my training officer about what was going on, and I felt like a different person.
Started to sort out some counselling sessions too, I really feeling like I might be starting to get somewhere. It feels really strange. Happiness, or any emotion for that matter isn't something I've felt in a while. I looking forward to being the person I'm supposed to be.
If this doesn't make sense to anyone, I'm not suprised. Its hard to describe how such seemingly normal things become so difficult when you suffer from depression, and how such little things can seem mean so much when I've achieved them!
Maybe I'll be able to sleep now too?...
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I found drugs did not work for me personally, hate drugs, or counselling but went to a phsychotherapist which was cool and really helped me....... infact now I counsel others!!!! Lol Counselling is a bit weird in that you cant really tell someone whats right or if how they feel is right etc whereas phsychotherapists actually can due to being qaulified to do so, so if the counselling feels too one sided then maybe ask to see someone different like that???
I am an all good happy person now so there is hope for everyone if I can do it!!!lol xxx hugs xxx
I hope theyre legal!!!