originaldaddio

Well it's done. We signed the last of the paperwork today. The house is now only mine as is all of our joint debt (that was the deal). The only thing left is the official order from the court and the divorce decree (Sep 28 is when it should go through). I have been a wreck these past few days over all of this. I know I want to move on and let go but I still feel like a failure. I don't want her. I don't desire her. I have no intention of ever getting back together with her. Eh quit whining! I'm just hating being alone right now. I don't ecen have my kid tonight. I actually had a date but I postponed it until tomorrow.

Oh and I have to think of a new crush. Any takers? I have finally had it with Kim. I had three paragraphs here but you don't need to hear all of that. Nutshell version: I don't need friends who feel it is ok to treat me badly. If anyone is really interested in the details I'll be happy to rant in an email.

I get to see the boy for a while tomorrow. The ex has to rehearse for an understudy to come in for her show so I get to take him to his friend Peter's 6th birthday party. Then he has yet another sleep over (I think she was trying to give me a break by arranging these instead of asking me to take him. Thing Is I like having him here)

So to summarize: The first shoe has dropped. Everything is signed and in writing. The uncertainty that has been eating away at me for the past several months is over. I just have to stop holding on to it.

Kim is history. Hopefully I will get back the money I loaned her.

Boy comes back Sunday.