originaldaddio

Had the boy last night. We've never had a fight before but we did at bedtime. I could tell he was acting out because of how he is feeling about him mom and sort of let him take it out on me. He's so strong willed though. The excuse for it was I had stopped reading Harry Potter too soon. It came down to him saying he never wanted to come back to my house. I could hear him crying in the dark as he said it. I let him settle down for a bit and then offered the solution that we hug and agree that the fight never happened. Which we did. He then asked me to sing the sleepy cowboy song to him. It's something I made up when he was an infant and I used to sing it to him at bedtime.

This is the first real evidence I have had that the divorce has been having an effect on him. I have decided not to enable his mother any more by taking him on random nights during her time with him to accomodate her social life. She needs to step up. I usually have him 3 or 4 of her nights and he's feeling neglected. (2 of those because she is in a show and I understand that but Jesus!)

He told me this morning that he wanted to stay with me the rest of this week. I tired to be good about it and told him that mommy missed him and that she really wanted to see him. Although I sometimes wonder about that personally.

On the "possibly plus" side I am going out on my first blind date ever tonight. We'll see how it goes.

I was supposed to have a session today for some ads for the new Spiderman videogame but they moved it to 2 weeks from today. I still have the job but it looks lke no work this week (well, paying work anyway. I still have to drive all over for auditions). Still, it's only Wednesday one never knows.