Pretty dull since we got back. The boy went to his mom's even though this is my week because I cut into part of hers with our trip. Had an uncomfortable date on Tuesday. A gal I met on line. She is nice enough but no real chemistry. At least not for me. Which is odd because I like everyone. I think it was more a question of her apparent need to latch on right away. While that has been my MO in the past as well I have been trying hard to get away from that. I suppose it's all part of the healing process but I am just afraid that my lonliness is going to make me jump into a relationship that isn't right just to be with someone. In case I haven't mentioned it, it's tough being lonely after 14 years of marriage. Even as lonely as some of those years were too.
Sometimes I wish I was more like some of the guys I know who can just go out and have sex. Because that's something I have been missing too. But I can't.
I was talking to my trainer tody about a girl we both know and she told me to forget it. I am too old. It made me think that I am going to have a hard time finding someone. There don't seem to be a lot of women my age who are interested in the kind of things I am. Not that my ex was really either. I put up with her Sondheim and she put up with my Queens of the Stone Age. Let's not even get started on videogames.
I had lunch at Wacky Waffles on Sunset today and one of the waitresses asked me about my son (he and I go there frequently and they are buddies). That's another thing to think about. I actually had a girl tell me she wasn't interested in getting involved with someone who already has a family (meaning a guy with a kid). I've come across a lot of that reently. Which in a way is funny because I haven't met a woman yet, single or otherwise, who hasn't fallen madly in love with my son as soon as she has met him. (this one hasn't)
It's not even that I think my standards are too high. If, however, I am going to be spending a lot of time with someone for the next several years or hopefully the rest of my life I want it to be someone I am attracted to and with whom I can get along. I know I shouldn't get too depressed about it. I have only been at this for a short time. Still...
Other than that, it has been work, auditions, housecleaning and too much World of Warcraft (an easy escape on those nights alone).
Sometimes I wish I was more like some of the guys I know who can just go out and have sex. Because that's something I have been missing too. But I can't.
I was talking to my trainer tody about a girl we both know and she told me to forget it. I am too old. It made me think that I am going to have a hard time finding someone. There don't seem to be a lot of women my age who are interested in the kind of things I am. Not that my ex was really either. I put up with her Sondheim and she put up with my Queens of the Stone Age. Let's not even get started on videogames.
I had lunch at Wacky Waffles on Sunset today and one of the waitresses asked me about my son (he and I go there frequently and they are buddies). That's another thing to think about. I actually had a girl tell me she wasn't interested in getting involved with someone who already has a family (meaning a guy with a kid). I've come across a lot of that reently. Which in a way is funny because I haven't met a woman yet, single or otherwise, who hasn't fallen madly in love with my son as soon as she has met him. (this one hasn't)
It's not even that I think my standards are too high. If, however, I am going to be spending a lot of time with someone for the next several years or hopefully the rest of my life I want it to be someone I am attracted to and with whom I can get along. I know I shouldn't get too depressed about it. I have only been at this for a short time. Still...
Other than that, it has been work, auditions, housecleaning and too much World of Warcraft (an easy escape on those nights alone).
matamoras:
High standards are a great thing. Keep them high. Really, I think people lower them too often.