reminiscing on 2013, i have seen much simpler times. this was a year of change; a year of unwelcome, undesired, colossal change. my world turned upside down, & did a few of those flippy things the batman coaster does at six flags. it brought my enemies into the light, while shoving my loves to the frontline beside me. it brought my weaknesses out for everyone to see, for everyone to judge & say, "she failed,", while simultaneously allowing me to win a battle within myself, to discover what i truly want out of this life. i burned bridges. i cut people off. i was cut off myself, & felt like a victim most of the year. this song encapsulates my attitude towards letting go & freeing my mind of the poisonous people i had surrounded myself with in the past.
looking back, i realize it is so much more noble to count these losses as painful lessons learned, smile, & bring those who continue to stand beside me into my 2014, into our year of justification & opportunity. you are the ones i wish to share this journey with. hand in hand we will conquer the upcoming year's fears & push each other further than we thought possible. 2013 was pretty shitty, for a lack of a better word. but 2014 has promises of academic success, professional triumph, & personal victories in friendship & in love. this was the most painful year i am yet to experience, & here's to having a tougher skin in 2014. here's to not biting my tongue, not walking away. here's to getting out more, being more open to new friendships. here's to taking on my dreams & making them my reality. tomorrow is the first page in your new book; write it beautifully
