orehitna

i feel as if everything has been said, and done before. there is nothing creative, nothing refreshing, nothing simply new. i know this has been said before, and it furthers my feelings. everything is reflection of the past in some way. its derived from inspiration, and influences, but are we merely just combining all these things to create something new? i have nothing to add...
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I leave to victoria for 10 days next wednesday. It should be exciting, since I only know one person out there.

Then I come back and hopefully quit my job. Even a disgruntled employee can be a workaholic, but the job's getting to me way too much.

ever felt like you just don't want to bother with social graces any more? like going out and partying or whatever just loses all it's luster, but you do it because it's expected of you, and people depend on you to go out, and all of the sudden you no longer have any will at all?

that's how i feel.

my english muffins were good...
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i'm eating english muffins.
or whatever you call these.
i was disappointed to learn, due to a lack of egg paste and sausage patties, i would be unable to make a sausage n egg mcmuffin.

however depressing that knowledge was, life goes on

have you ever felt like you have nothing interesting to say, only because you're not sure how to say it?

that's how i feel.

i want to blog something, but have no idea what. i'm so all over the place mentally the last week.

so, instead...

here's a bullet, and here's a pistol
pull the trigger with me,
and lets find life ever lasting

the only thing forever is death
seal this deal with a bullet and a kiss
my trigger fingers weak,
i can already see the wings of an angel
over your shoulders
and i fall down slowly at your feet
here's a bullet and a gun
finish the job

i can't decide if i'm depressed or disenchanted.

There's something nice about that first beer after work.

I was thinking last night, and since i've been thinking like i've lost my mind, and suddenly stepped outside myself the last 48 to 72 hours, I came to a conclusion that I used to drink because I couldn't handle the reality of myself, and I used to smoke pot because I couldn't handle my unfocused...
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