orehitna

i want to blog something, but have no idea what. i'm so all over the place mentally the last week.

so, instead...

here's a bullet, and here's a pistol
pull the trigger with me,
and lets find life ever lasting

the only thing forever is death
seal this deal with a bullet and a kiss
my trigger fingers weak,
i can already see the wings of an angel
over your shoulders
and i fall down slowly at your feet
here's a bullet and a gun
finish the job

i can't decide if i'm depressed or disenchanted.

There's something nice about that first beer after work.

I was thinking last night, and since i've been thinking like i've lost my mind, and suddenly stepped outside myself the last 48 to 72 hours, I came to a conclusion that I used to drink because I couldn't handle the reality of myself, and I used to smoke pot because I couldn't handle my unfocused...
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saturday.
what the hell happened to saturdays? people either forfeit them in hangovers from their escapism from the night before, or prepare to ignore reality for one more night. then they all climb into bed early in the morning, just soon enough to miss all the church broadcasts on cable television, so they don't feel guilty about ignoring their roots. Fuck religion, fuck worship. But...
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It's Friday and amazing how quickly shit can change inside your own head. Especially when you may be distorting things, or unwilling to believe any different.

I go back to work tonight. I'm looking forward to it, and not at the same time. I'm fucking bored, people.

Moved into our new place on saturday. It was bit hectic when it started pouring rain just before we moved our last load. Partied fairly hardy that night for my birthday, and I've been lounging around the last few days, getting settled in before going back to work.

Work's been up and done, got in a huge fight with my boss a few weeks ago,...
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Everything falls to pieces, and then falls into place
It makes no sense.

I wish I had sweeter news than that to tell anyone who cares, but unfortunately, for the moment, my rut continues.

Or at least, my rut because the interesting things that happen are way too personal.

it's thursday
or is it friday?

oh, stuff is going good. you know, working, and not doing anything else. it'll keep me sane as long as I can't think

basically i work too much
i kleep meaning to update this, but never get around to it.

yes, i know, whoopty shit.

i am, however, currently pissed off at my phone for breaking, or whatever is going on with it. i don't really want to go to bell tomorrow and argue with a employee.

other than that, tomorrow night i have a date.
a gloriously...
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