orchid1

I had horrible dreams last night and couldn't sleep at all. There was someone I had hoped to avoid and ended up at his house. Which was fine, but it made me remember everything I hate about him and the way he treated me. Bothered me more than I'd like to admit. I've talked about this before but I never thought about it when I was home before, everyone knew the story, there was no reason for me to go over it. When I moved, and talked with new people and we told our stories...it became really clear that alot of things happened that shouldn't have. Ech.
New Years party, first one I can't drink at. It feels wierd and like I'm kind of an outsider. I'm sure it won't once I'm there...
I also got a little coldsore. How is it that I don't get one all year, then the last few days that Dave is here I get one so that I won't be able to kiss him?
Agghhh

Happy New Year everyone!!