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Saturday Jul 14, 2007

Jul 14, 2007
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regret. always, there is regret.

Cody's funeral didn't give me the closure that I needed - surprisingly, karaoke was the thing that did it. I felt shitty at first, since I made the mistake of talking to David at the funeral. I know he has a lot of confusion and misguided anger going on, but he didn't need to blame me. I already feel guilty enough as it is. But then misguided sang Hey, Jude and Jeremy sang Always Look on the Bright Side of Life and everyone sang along. And it was like Cody was standing there with us, beer in his hand, yelling out the lyrics. I miss him more than I thought I would, and I regret not knowing him better. Someone said to me: Cody really liked you. He talked about you a lot....and then they walked away. I wonder if that was true. It's so frustrating to me that I'll never get to know. But thanks to freakpirate and carla and misguided for holding me and hugging me and just being THERE. It meant more than you'll know. <3

your skill in babysitting has decreased by one point

Babies are LOUD. Especially when it is hot outside, they are teething, and they are in an unfamiliar home. I am completely knackered. In fact, when I am finished this blog entry, I am going to change a load of laundry, clean the kitchen, change my sheets, and then go to BED. I am NEVER having children. Ever.

t minus twenty-five

WTF. I can't be leaving that soon. I just looked and was floored by the number. That's...really fucking close. I've got a bunch of stuff packed but I just don't feel...emotionally ready to go. The part of me that fights with my parents and hates my job, and is frustrated by having to justify every action to my mom - that part wants to leave asap. But the part that's fallen for misguided, and that's made all these fantastically awesome new friends, and that is scared and nervous and TERRIFIED...that part wants just one more year. But...it's an adventure. I always complain that my life isn't exciting enough, and now I have a chance to change that.

And now for something completely different!


SPOILERS! (Click to view)


It little profits that an idle king,
By this still hearth, among these barren crags,
Matched with an aged wife, I mete and dole
Unequal laws unto a savage race,
That hoard, and sleep, and feed, and know not me.

I cannot rest from travel: I will drink
Life to the lees: all times I have enjoyed
Greatly, have suffered greatly, both with those
That loved me, and alone; on shore, and when
Through scudding drifts the rainy Hyades
Vest the dim sea: I am become a name;
For always roaming with a hungry heart
Much have I seen and known; cities of men
And manners, climates, councils, governments,
Myself not least, but honoured of them all;
And drunk delight of battle with my peers;
Far on the ringing plains of windy Troy.
I am part of all that I have met;
Yet all experience is an arch wherethrough
Gleams that untravelled world, whose margin fades
For ever and for ever when I move.
How dull it is to pause, to make an end,
To rust unburnished, not to shine in use!
As though to breath were life. Life piled on life
Were all to little, and of one to me
Little remains: but every hour is saved
From that eternal silence, something more,
A bringer of new things; and vile it were
For some three suns to store and hoard myself,
And this gray spirit yearning in desire
To follow knowledge like a sinking star,
Beyond the utmost bound of human thought.

This is my son, mine own Telemachus,
To whom I leave the scepter and the isle
Well-loved of me, discerning to fulfill
This labour, by slow prudence to make mild
A rugged people, and through soft degrees
Subdue them to the useful and the good.
Most blameless is he, centered in the sphere
Of common duties, decent not to fail
In offices of tenderness, and pay
Meet adoration to my household gods,
When I am gone. He works his work, I mine.

There lies the port; the vessel puffs her sail:
There gloom the dark broad seas. My mariners,
Souls that have toiled, and wrought, and thought with me
That ever with a frolic welcome took
The thunder and the sunshine, and opposed
Free hearts, free foreheads you and I are old;
Old age had yet his honour and his toil;
Death closes all: but something ere the end,
Some work of noble note, may yet be done,
Not unbecoming men that strove with Gods.
The lights begin to twinkle from the rocks:
The long day wanes: the slow moon climbs: the deep
Moans round with many voices. Come, my friends,
'Tis not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down:
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Though much is taken, much abides; and though
We are not now that strength which in the old days
Moved earth and heaven; that which we are, we are,
One equal-temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.



<3<3

VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
freakpirate:
I like the rain too. But I'm pretty sure the only day it didn't rain when I was in Vancouver was the day it snowed. tongue

Jul 15, 2007
autumnfade:
The Great Achilles
thanks for a spark- wink
Jul 18, 2007

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