At the moment, I believe I am displaying "...affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)" [DSM-IV]. I'm hoping for the few hours part and not the few days, since I really feel like I just drank like NINE fucking cups of coffee. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight.
Happier thoughts! My sister's band concert was as good as a grade-nine band concert could be, and it made me miss being a band geek. I think I shall go visit my band teacher this week and chat with him...I really just miss absolutely everything about being in music. The tours, the bus, the hanging out after school, the room with the broken blinds, the timpany drums, sitting against the speakers playing tic-tac-toe, drawing cartoons on the chalkboard, running up and down Banff ave in the springtime, rockin' out to "Pirates of the Caribbean"...I less than three music, that is for sure.
Other stuff? I am le STRESSED about moving. My tenative move-out date is August 7th, which is like TWO MONTHS, and I don't have a place to live yet! I'm going in July to look at some apartments, and I think I'm gonna have to settle for having a room in a private home, or rooming with someone, which isn't too bad. I'm just freaking out about money and living on my own and OMG yeah. Also, leaving is going to suck a bit harder now that I have someone important to leave behind. But it's worth it, cause he's awesome and kind and thoughtful.
Okay. So that was long and bitchy and I think I'm going to stop now. I promise I'm not usually this pessimistic! *thinks happy thoughts*
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Happier thoughts! My sister's band concert was as good as a grade-nine band concert could be, and it made me miss being a band geek. I think I shall go visit my band teacher this week and chat with him...I really just miss absolutely everything about being in music. The tours, the bus, the hanging out after school, the room with the broken blinds, the timpany drums, sitting against the speakers playing tic-tac-toe, drawing cartoons on the chalkboard, running up and down Banff ave in the springtime, rockin' out to "Pirates of the Caribbean"...I less than three music, that is for sure.
Other stuff? I am le STRESSED about moving. My tenative move-out date is August 7th, which is like TWO MONTHS, and I don't have a place to live yet! I'm going in July to look at some apartments, and I think I'm gonna have to settle for having a room in a private home, or rooming with someone, which isn't too bad. I'm just freaking out about money and living on my own and OMG yeah. Also, leaving is going to suck a bit harder now that I have someone important to leave behind. But it's worth it, cause he's awesome and kind and thoughtful.
Okay. So that was long and bitchy and I think I'm going to stop now. I promise I'm not usually this pessimistic! *thinks happy thoughts*
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manchester_black:
Yikes, moving can either be a really liberating experience, or it can be a total hellfest... normally a little mix of both (but the living situation you move into plays a big part in it I think)