orangeasaurusrex

I'm trying to cram before therapy tomorrow.
My homework is to challenge my core belief. However this year a lone has validated it and I can't get around it. So I sit here and cry. I feel like crap. I suddenly see very clearly that I smoke so much pot for a reason.

I'd rather feel nothing than have to deal with all this pain....
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Out of pot.
Am I depressed because

a) I'm out of Pot
b) I'm not allowed to smoke until I see my doctor
c) Life sux
d) Life is difficult
e) Because I'm getting better?
f) Because I can't Drink Or Smoke
g) All of the above

Gawd I hate going to therapy. I love it by monday and it is for the best. But I hate these bumpy rides. I have the urge to email my ex again and hide from the world.
I can't believe how much it bothers me that she hates me so much. I wish life was easy again. I miss being so happy.

Ug home at 7. I hate life lol

And I'm randomly happy.

Saw jackass 3D, it was good

I eff'n hate therapy.

I am so sick and tired of being depressed.