orangeasaurusrex

sooooo what did you think of star trek??

i loved it too

It's not so much that I'm worried I'm loosing old friends, I've only bothered keeping in contact with good friends anyway.. It's more the fact that socialising in general has become a chore more than it has in the past.. I've always been abit mysanphropic and my close friends are fine not hearing from me for a week or so and then randomly appearing out of nowhere.
recently though it seems like any interaction with people that's face to face is some level of irritating so I've buried myself on the interenet and WoW.. I think it's just my way of dealing with myself untill I've solved my problems.. But disliking almost everyong unless I'm in an amazing mood can't be healthy..

With my dad I've known they're only human for a good long while but cheating on your pregnant wife is a douchey thing to do, part of me actually feels sorry for him because if I was him It'd haunt me every time I looked at emily.
I don't hold it against him it's just a shock and I've got to get used to the idea.
With my mum and the house I want to move out but even if I had the money too I can't.. Not untill It's sorted.. It would feel like I'm abandoning them in this place.. I felt guilty enough at uni and not being able to wait to get out of the place during the hollidays..
But the effort & time it would take to sort the house and make sure they keep it that way seems equivolent to having to paint every blade of grass on a football field a different colour..

Thank you for taking the time to read all that and post a reply your right this blog has a habit of helping.
N don't worry I wont read back to often.. I don't want to know how much of a twat I can sound at times ^^

On a lighter more cheery note that's a pretty awesome dog, (Just googled it)
and grats on the new car! I've just applied for my provisional liecence and it cost me 50
If i'd got it before uni it would've only cost $20 gah! lol
Thank you again dude.

The house is just uber messy.. there's even a couple of rooms blocked off buy old furniture that my mum "doesn't want to get rid of it" because half of it was her dead grandmothers.. gah
I don't know why but I've always been more of a cat person.. When I move out and can afford it I might pick me up a and call it gollem or something XD

Aye we'll both keep our Chin up and if I'm ever in your area of the world I shall buy you a drink good sir

Aye what breed's your dog?
Every one I know who's been to a psychiatrist (if thats the right term) have told me that it's been really helpfull and they've been really glad to have done it.
I've really started wanting my own house/flat recently

yay!

Happy Earth Day!

talking form experiance me and my ex (together for 5 years) split we wanted to be friends still but untill you've managed to deal with your own feelings and become comfortable with them you shouldn't try to even make contact with the other.. it doesn't work out.
It took a great deal of work to remain friends and now we're better than we've been in a couple of years when we were together.
it's not that you have to try hard you just have to give yourself space untill You're ready, you also need to stop considering her feelings.. It's probably the hardest part and it will feel like a douchebag thing to try and do, but i assure you it'll help no end and is what needs doing, Its time to look after yourself more than anything.

I miss the gym I can't afford it since uni but a good workout always made me feel better ^^

Part of me can't help but wonder that when people say material goods don't make them happy/ier it might be because they're unhappy in other aspects of their lives and think that because they have nice things that could bring them happyness (not deep seated emotional well being but at least comfort and enjoyment) it causes guilt and might be used as a scapegoat (blaming themsleves for being to materialistic and greedy).
I think the parallel if you question weither you're crazy or not you can't be crazy fits the bill, people who worry about being materialistic arn't materialistic they're just worried they may be lacking in other more emotional based areas (which you linked to the ex).
Just random ponderings.. not analysing you or anything sorry lol.

No worries!
Yeah I know what you mean.. good luck n I hope it goes well