It seems to me that you owe yourself a fighting chance. Don't change yourself, but work to make yourself better, inside and out.
I know several people who suffer with questions like yours, but when they find a way to conquer their leanings, a new life full of opportunity opens for them.
Last I kept up with you, you had moved into a great new apartment with your dog. That was a great find! What's up these days that's lucky? Good parking space? Nice weather? Your favourite song on the radio?
It's there> You just have to look for it
Good luck!
Whats happened? I'm sorry to hear that things didn't work out with the girl.. but don't go trying to change yourself for someone.
People don't change, much..
I see it this way, People are a core, and over time many layers of stuff pile upon this core (like layers on an onion to rip shrieks metaphor).
Depression would just be a layer on the core of you, if you managed to chip away at it till it was gone you'd still be the same person, have the same beliefs probably enjoy the same things etc you can't loose your identity you might loose something thats effecting it, but it's certainly not effecting it in a good way so Don't worry about that side of things two much.
I'm going to double blog cause I have nothing better todo... and I"m tired.
I shared an experience with my neighbor. It turns out we've gone through the same at different times. I mentioned me having troubles with my depression and she gave me some pointers. Especially she's more use to being alone than me. She seems to really fixate on her dog though. Since... Read More
I feel my depression setting in again... weekends suck
I was so happy all week too. Well here goes round 345,837,432,718 with the dark beast.... when will it give up
fuck I gotta remember to copy & paste that shit before I post!
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Finally.... some drama within my control.
I guess now is a good time to really write.
I've stopped working out. Its not I'm giving up, its just trying to find time for things. I'm living a fairly active life style... Read More
Sounds like progress dude.
Although I'm not so sure about the pot thing, I've had a few friends think that it's been helping only 10months down the line them hating it and wishing they'd hit it on the head early on.
I don't mean to pass judgement just a heads up.
I've only just really started discovering porn, this is the first year in my adult life that I've been single, n it wasnt untill a female friend took the mick out of me for not having any I thought I should bother getting some.
Saying that I think I've got abit of a problem I've seen the average number of times the averge joe masterbates a week.. I normally double or triple that not sure thats healthy or a good thing (although it was like that before the porn).
The Meteor Shower sounds pretty swish
just saw two policemen on bicycles chasing a SUV... funny part is that when a police car caught the SUV... the lesson in all this, you can't beat the man... even if he looks like he has a temporary disadvantage.
P.S.
I apologize to everyone everywhere for everything. Why? I dunno curious if it'll make life more interesting.
I already have, I asked the two jobs I've already applied for and got rejected, just out of curiosity.
I thought might as well find out how I can improve my stuff etc, turns out they both "got lucky" and had senior designers apply for the junior jobs, they said I would've made interview if it weren't for that.
I like the philosophy, although surely the fact you don't know what your apolgising for would make it seem insincere and negate the point? either way hope it makes things interesting!
not sure thats healthy or a good thing (although it was like that before the porn).