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Friday Oct 09, 2009

Oct 9, 2009
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can you believe 4 beers gets me drunk?
I have figured it out. I am frustrated with my life mission. My objective on this earth has been lost or accomplished. I am frustrated. I think I'm past my best before date.

I think its time to find a definition for myself. I think the time of BOM is past. I need a new identity. I need a new self. Time to reflect inward. Old definitions no longer apply.

What now?
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I feel so lied too. Can I trust anyone again? I already have huge trust issues. Can I be a person again?
I think I have a lot of questions to ask. I feel so lost. When I feel up its only mirrored by a down. That is my life.

I'm not happy with much. Despite the good in my life and things I see as great... you know I know some people would kill to have my life... but why am I so unhappy with it? The really simple things I've always strived for in my life have let me down. I am really dealing with things that I don't know how to deal with. Usually a profound growth happens when these things happen. Things are going to change. I am going to change with them. I know life is mutable. Things are going to alter themselves.

In the next year this is what is going to happen:
1) I am going to realize I am who I am
2) I will realize I always change
3) I will be rocked yet again and my life will be shaken to its core
4) I will be wealthy and successful
5) Friendship & love will come from a place I will not be looking
6) I will make a deal with the devil
7) Something old will die and something new will grow
8) I will finally break my self imposed chains
9) I will thrive as I always do
10) You, me and everyone else will be surprised by unexplainable events.
eyehatetherain:
ha oh drunkeness how fun it can be. and how bad
Oct 9, 2009

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