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Maybe I lied before about being in love... because now I've hit a new plateau. I mean.. clearly what I thought was love before was wrong... and this is different. I'm not a liar.. cause that's what I thought... but clearly I was wrong before. For someone who thought he wasn't capable of love.. this is a whole new level. I mean... we're disgusting... attached at the hip... very connected. I'm starting to get that thing where you can sense something is up... roughly what they are feeling no matter what they say. This is very much 'the side walk came up and hit me in the face' kinda thing... My biggest fear is that it will end... or we'll get comfortable... that's why we have 'spew talks' (look below)

You gotta love living with your parents and you g/f has to ask if you feel comfortable doing it while your mother sleeps in the next room. While I can agree living at home sux... it kinda brings the fun of being a teenager again.

I don't have a lot to say. There will be a flood of pictures coming in soon. My g/f got a digital camera for Christmas and she has taken a lot of pictures of the dog, her, herself and I. (grammer?)

Other than that... I've been distracted. I haven't had any fights yet with her and we have a lot of open and frank discussions. We have these what I call 'spew talks' where we just talk.. and make no sense... but just unload whats on our mind. It never makes sense we always use words that don't convey a clear message. It's hard...

I'm pretty happy that she is cool with my hang ups with Obligation. I mean... that the whole 'bringing your g/f to family functions'. I don't like doing things because society tells me too... I'd rather do the same things because I want to do them. There is something so not genuine about doing things because you have too... I like doing stuff because it makes the people involved happy... what fun is a family Thanksgiving/easter/Christmas when no one wants to be there?

This Christmas my g/f couldn't make it to 1 of my family Christmas's. She had to stay home for the 'immediate' family. Turns out.. that made her mom super happy. Though my family was disappointed that they didn't see her.... they understood. Why should she have to make my family happy over the 'dating obligation' I think to myself. I'm guessing I'm more frustrated at people in the world who make their significant others put their needs first and I'm very happy I'm not in that situation.

Anyways... I'm rocking a new LCD monitor I got on boxing day.. turns out for the same price I could have gotten a bigger one . Dumb me... ah well.. next year

At Christmas.... my dad hugged my g/f. For some 'normal' families that's probably 'normal'. But for my family.. its just plain creepy. Considering my dad doesn't hug me or my sister (or ever in that situation). I'm very hard on my dad and do put him under a microscope (well deserved trust me).... but I've decided not to bring my g/f into any situation where they will be in the same room again. I have a fear of 'escalation' which I think is founded. It bothers me that my dad lacks certain social graces... but I guess sometimes you expect a lot out of the people who are suppose to be close to you.

Overall.. Christmas was busy. I seem to continue with the same health problems... While I don't think it's fatal... it's uncomfortable. It did seem to be dietary for a while but now I don't know. I'll keep looking it... it looks to be getting better so I'm only a little worried about it now...