Saturday Oct 31, 2009

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I waxed my shoulders, neck and back. Ouch Ouch Ouch Ouch Ouch. Actually... its not that bad smile Next time I think I'll pay someone to do it at a spa or something.... I missed a lot of spots.

Tuesday Oct 20, 2009

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I found a picture of the ex in my wallet with a note on the back of it.
It only hurt a little smile

In other news:
I continue to put myself in retarded situations smile
posh:
I know, right. Typical Gemini!

Friday Oct 09, 2009

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can you believe 4 beers gets me drunk?
I have figured it out. I am frustrated with my life mission. My objective on this earth has been lost or accomplished. I am frustrated. I think I'm past my best before date.

I think its time to find a definition for myself. I think the time of BOM is past. I need a new identity. I...
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eyehatetherain:
ha oh drunkeness how fun it can be. and how bad

Friday Oct 09, 2009

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I unnecessarily exploded yesterday. I still feel like shit. I don't know where these feelings are coming from.

I decided not to go out tonight. If I don't go out next weekend, I'm going to bash my head into a wall. I'm such a coward.

Thursday Sep 17, 2009

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Wahoo! So far so good! I haven't emailed her yet
Funny with my brain; I feel the need to send her an email just to tell her she sux.... but I won't smile

Monday Sep 07, 2009

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I walked my dog,
I got stun by something

I need to go for walks more often

Monday Aug 31, 2009

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I haven't felt like writing. Everything is normal. I feel good.
I saw district 9 it was good.

I was exhausted from work. I spent all day sunday sleeping. I still am behind on my cleaning. I'll try and catch up this week.

For now I'm enjoying a Sleeman Cream Ale (its okay). Prefer my honey browns smile

Membership renewal is coming up. I'm debating keeping...
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Sunday Aug 23, 2009

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I am sooo busy... sooo tired
I can only describe myself one way right now.. poetically constipated.

I want to write about how I'm feeling, its very good very up. This weekend didn't turn out to be a depression soaked affair I expected it to be.....

But I have come to a new realization that I think is either me accepting the reason she gave...
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tita:
It seems to me that you owe yourself a fighting chance. Don't change yourself, but work to make yourself better, inside and out.
I know several people who suffer with questions like yours, but when they find a way to conquer their leanings, a new life full of opportunity opens for them.
Last I kept up with you, you had moved into a great new apartment with your dog. That was a great find! What's up these days that's lucky? Good parking space? Nice weather? Your favourite song on the radio?
It's there> You just have to look for it wink
Good luck!
ferinus:
Whats happened? I'm sorry to hear that things didn't work out with the girl.. but don't go trying to change yourself for someone.
People don't change, much..
I see it this way, People are a core, and over time many layers of stuff pile upon this core (like layers on an onion to rip shrieks metaphor).
Depression would just be a layer on the core of you, if you managed to chip away at it till it was gone you'd still be the same person, have the same beliefs probably enjoy the same things etc you can't loose your identity you might loose something thats effecting it, but it's certainly not effecting it in a good way so Don't worry about that side of things two much.

Friday Aug 21, 2009

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I'm going to double blog cause I have nothing better todo... and I"m tired.
I shared an experience with my neighbor. It turns out we've gone through the same at different times. I mentioned me having troubles with my depression and she gave me some pointers. Especially she's more use to being alone than me. She seems to really fixate on her dog though. Since...
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Friday Aug 21, 2009

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I feel my depression setting in again... weekends suck
I was so happy all week too. Well here goes round 345,837,432,718 with the dark beast.... when will it give up
xxun:
I'm sorry <3

Sunday Aug 16, 2009

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I can officially say my emotions are a fucking super ball


maybe more like a lacrosse ball... because the second bounce is usually lower but takes off much faster

I am realizing that I need to just block myself from sending email to the ex, this sums up how I feel now


Okay,
I'm a fucking retard and this is just me venting....

But I...
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xxun:
Cute puppy!
I really how thing get better for you, maybe some of my good mindset will rub off on you D:< Positive thinking through friction!
benten:
thanking you. x
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