oracle

Things are terribly sucky. I don't know whats wrong with me...I like where I am living. I LOVE my job (although its kinda stressful) but I am down...I don't think I will ever find anyone...I have done almost everything wrong in my life. I have very little to offer anyone. I know people reading this in SG will try and say things to the contrary but well...me here and me in real life are different..sort of. Even reading the boards I realize that although I have lots of friends on my list...I am in the 105 (some of the greatest people around) I am still very invisible...I wish I was someone or something. I had my 15 minutes of fame playing roller hockey but even then I was the forgetable guy on the team. the only time a group of people crowded me for autographs was when the mistook me for the goalie. My entire life I have been just there...sometimes I am funny, sometimes I am smart but on a whole..I am just there and if I wasn't, it would have little effect on the people that would be there without me. As for girls..I have nothing to offer anyone...and lately I have been doing a lot of self distructing mostly unintentionally but it happens.
Life sucks...but it is better then it was a few months ago.