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Monday Mar 29, 2004

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I am not sure when things changed...I used to be happy, I had nothing but a pair of inline skates and a sega genisis...I slept on the floor of a guys house ate nothing but granola bars (sometimes dipping them in peanut butter if I had enough money) I had a horrible part time job selling inline skates and played semi pro roller hockey. I loved it...now I look at myself, an air traffic controller making good money own all kinds of very nice things wear nothing but expensive clothes from tommy or eddie bauer, drive a BMW....but I am not happy. I was out with a friend last night and I was talking to a 20 year old skater girl, a girl who would have loved me when I was younger (not cause I was hot or whatever) but because I was fun to be around cause I was having fun. It hit me that I am not this person I have become. I try to compensate by saying I have to be professional, that my tattoo's and piercings is all I need to keep me remembering who I was...but its not enough. unfortunately when I put on some of my old skater clothes it didn't look or feel right...I have gained weight I dont skate and have become what I used to hate. The girls I 'should' date bore me the girls I would love to date (sg's and the member type girls) - don't want anything to do with me... i am having a serious personality crisis and the last few days I have solved it by drinking lots but all that has done is complicate things even more. I don't know what to do, I don't know who I am. I am hoping I move to BC, hang out on the ocean in a california atmosphere and I will be home again...so for now I will blame it on the praries....sorry to all the friends that were on my list and deleted in a drunken fit....I have been feeling very over looked in life and on the site so I apologize for being so rash
okay on the upside of this down week or two...THEY ARE BACK...4 of em this time biggrin
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ninjagrrrl:
wow. i totally hear you. i just wasted a few years working for the government and only now that i got laid off do i realize how unhappy it made me. i was convincing myself i was starting a career, but all i was doing was delaying my life.
Apr 1, 2004
rickets:
I like the part where they tell you to shout "no" as loud as you can in your mind when you're thinking of pulling one off.

My favorite, however, is the insinuation that it's better to be really fat than a masturbator.
Apr 1, 2004

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