i am so tired of feeling trapped. Not living my life, not living where I want to live, not living near friends and family. I am so close to a pension, is loathing the next 3.5 years worth sticking around for a measly 30k a year pension? The only fear I have about leaving the military is my quality of life, how much stuff I have. Would I be happier making less but living where I want? Live in a small apartment, a TV, a bed and my motorcycle...fuck everything else?

I dont know what to do...actually I do...I just dont know if I have the strength to do it.