So, a sober reflection journal update.

I have been in Winnipeg and my new home for about a year now. I was so hopeful for my time here in Winnipeg. I bought a great house that I love, I thought my career would be going better but most of all, I though I would at least have a regular girl to date, if not a full on girl friend BUT....instead, my world seems to be crumbling with a few bright spots to look forward to.

First, I usually get nostalgic around autumn, there is something in the air. I was hoping to have someone to spend the darker nights with, someone to cuddle by a fire with, watch a movie with, go out and see halloween decorations with...but I do not which reminds me how empty my life is.

I SHOULD be a Warrant Officer at work BUT instead I got sick with what may be a life long ailment, so instead of progressing in my career, it may be coming to a halt. On the bright side, a medical release isnt a bad thing, I could move home and go to school and I may have a line on a job that would be GREAT for me.

I bought a publishing company and a xxx website. I think I may have bit off more than I could chew. I think I need to scale back and develop one than the other, not tackle both at the same time.

Things in Winnipeg are costing way more than I anticipated so I may have to sell my motorcycle in the spring...and possibly my house..

SO...ya, thats where I am now...