oracle

this week has been the oddest of my life. I met a girl I thought had serious potential...I blew it. I had a 3some with 2 hot girls..(I know...you are thinking not a chance and trust me, if I knew me I'd say the same) I met an ex gf on facebook.com I haven't seen for 14 years. She has been in a 7 year relationship, she said she would leave him for me (she decided to think about it) I hung out last night with a bartender and a waitress and bonded with them..(got their emails etc) nothing relationship wise will progress BUT it is flattering knowing they are into me on at least some respect.
My biggest worry and I can't go into it....I fly, our planes have "issues" i leave sunday for a northern patrol, for the first time in my limited flying career I am scared. I honestly don't think I will be coming home.