Well, as they tend to do, things are looking up. I am still bumed that she doesn't like me that way and I hope I wasn't too "emo" and destroyed all chance of a relatonship friend or not...but c'est la vie.
I really would like to be more of the guy I was...somewhere in the middle of then and now.

BUT what made me happy is I joined facebook.com not long ago...old friends I didn't think would remember me have found me. 2 ex gfs, one I haven't talked to for 13 years said she has tried a few times to find me and the other I haven't talked to in about 9 years found me too. It makes me happy because I have always felt i am the forgettable one in the crowd. It bums me out that i did have such great women in my life but i took them for granted and now (thanks to karma) I am living sad and alone...but I am still happy they think about me. Another one was a guy friend of mine, his gf found me and put us back in touch. Its cool...its amazing how simple things like that can change your perspective on things.

In real news, this girl here that I have become friends with came over last night to cheer me up, she brought her roomie, her roomie was TRES hot...started off ordinarily enough, watched a couple of movies, drank LOTS..WELL, one thing lead to another and well...all I will say is "dear playboy, I never thought it would happen to me"

things could be worse for sure.