oracle

sometimes, when I get happy...or excited, I become too excited or annoying I guess. usually I notice and I try to stop but usually its too late.
I knew things weren't what they seemed, that it was just fun and I took it too far and pushed away someone else I cared about. I just wish I could have something real and not something I know is temporary or not leading to something. I just hope she knows how great she is and how much she means to me...in whatever capacity. and I'm sorry.