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so halloween is over...I am upset that I didn't get to dress up...I SO want to be the phantom...I think I am going to fly to a city playing the phantom in the summer and dress up as the phantom and go...but I want a really good mask...like one actually make for me or at least made out of ceramic. Something I can hang on the wall when I'm not wearing it so any keen artists I'd forever love you.

In other news..I am sitting at home having a beer watching TV and I see flashlights on my balcony...so I am like holy crap someone is in the neighbours house so I pop out onto my balcony and buddy with the light is like "hi" and I am like "hi" and then a pause..and I am like...can I help you...and he is like "oh I'm sorry, I am with the RCMP (Canadian Federal cops) we had a death reported" and I was like well its not on my balcony, he kinda laughed and said no, its your neighbour and I am like oh okay have a good night...he was like can we come talk to you." and I am like okay. So he and his partner came over and asked when I saw her last, if we talked etc...
now don't anyone be saying oh I'm sorry...cause well, I wasn't attached to her so c'est la vie....or not I guess in this case. Anyway...its been a couple of weeks since I've seen her...and for about a week I knew something was wrong..she was NEVER on the balcony, her balcony door was ajar..but I didn't want to be a nosey neighbour so I didn't say anything...so that sucks..I mean I couldn't have saved her BUT she was there for 2 weeks or so....and NO ONE noticed. Her son didn't..no one here did...my biggest fear is being alone..dying alone...I have often thought that when I go on vacation and have no plans except sitting around in my underwear...if I died day one no one would notice til I ddn't show up for work..and even they would wait a few days before doing anything. I feel bad she was alone.

In other news, I am going to Nova Scotia Saturday...I maybe internetless for a week or so...