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Shit. I just realized it's been like a month and a half since my last post. I'm laaaaaazy. Actually, I've been busy, which is a very good thing. I was finally able to get a job in California. It's totally not what I want to be doing, but it's a start to getting there, as in, it will pay my bills for a little while. I got a job working for Petco. They send me to alternating stores each week to try and convince customers to start buying their pets Premium, Natural food. It's a little more expensive, but very much healthier for the animals. With all the rich, holistically minded people here in LA, it's not too hard, and I'm totally not a salesman, so it could be worse.

So, I should be all happy, right? I moved out here and managed to find a job. It only took me a month and a half. I guess that's better luck than some people have... But I'm not happy. Between my internship (2 days a week) and my part time bullshit job that pays the bills (4 days a week), I usually only get one day a week off and it's Monday, which is a shitty day to have off. Plus, this job JUST BARELY pays my bills, so I'm STILL so fucking broke that I can't go out and do anything, I can't go have fun, I can't take a girl out on a date, I can't go to any concerts or events or pretty much do ANYTHING that requires money. I feel like I'm getting nowhere, because I have to work this shit job to pay the bills, but I have no free time to freelance or work on any side projects. If I want to work on other stuff, then I can't work the shit job and I won't make consistent money for bills. I don't know. I know I'm just beating myself up over it. I've only been in California for a little over 2 months. But, mark my words, if at the end of the year, I'm still working this bullshit, I just might pick up and move again. I can't do this forever. It's killing me.