opethfan777

It's been a rough day. My mind has been wracked with more anxiety lately than normal. I have been on meds for my anxiety disorder now for about 5 months. After I got used to them, I felt a lot better. But, in the past week or so, I am noticing irrational bouts of anger and frustration. I had a friend warn me that this may occur because he had been on anti-depressants before. I am noticing my own self doubts are what anger me the most. Yet, I can't physically force myself to put any effort towards them.

Typically this refers to me severe fear of talking to women it seems. After going through a lot of horrible situations with women(not just with dating) I have been very fearful of talking to and building emotional intimacy with women. This compounded with the fact that I cannot tell when a woman is flirting has led to me being completely clueless and fearful of dating. I see a girl and I think she's attractive. So, instead of talking to her, I avoid her at all costs. Because I am so convinced she will either cheat on me if she does date me or say no and that's that.

Heck, I did that these past few months with a girl I saw weekly. I avoided her even though I wanted to talk to her. It's embarrassing and I get angry at myself. I have to at least think she caught me looking at her, in that way, a few times. Sometimes I wish I could slap myself and do it. Even if I make it past that phase, I usually get caught up in being flustered after a few seconds of conversation.

tl;dr
I suck at talking to women, the end.