opethfan777

I have just realized possibly the grandest problem I have with my sexual nature. I was raised in a conservative home and forced through Catholic school. Having it drilled into my head that sex is wrong. Unless it's in the confines of marriage. As a kid, I have realized that this part of me is still indoctrinated with this ideal. It's a constant conflict in my head.

I have yet to be sexually awakened. Mostly due to my fear of intimacy but also this nagging thought process that tells me to be disgusted by my sexual nature. Here I am, getting older and honestly I am kinda scared of sex. I cannot see myself overcoming this unless something drastic happens. Unless I meet someone who I can trust to waken this side of me. Mind you, I am totally more of a relationship type of dude, so I'm not sure I could just casually do this. I wonder if any of you read this, what your opinion is. No, this isn't me putting sex on some pedestal. This is me expressing a legitimate fear. Thanks to the teachings I received as an impressionable youth.