After work tommorow i'm leaving for A.C. for this godforsaken religious weekend is too much to handle. The one person that i wanted to go is not coming, why- because that's the way things always work out. Fuck it- It's not worth the time to think about anymore. Friends are coming and alcohol there is plenty. This will be the first Saturday where I haven't worked or schooled since what, January? Iggy- reading your entry about the bartender was heartbreaking, I'm in the same boat, feeling the same rejection. Yet every time i see her I'll go back to maybe something will happen, and of course it never does, and i only end up feeling worse because i keep shooting down my own dreams. I've got to kill this feelings and move on. It's alot easier to type it than to do it though. If your car gets fixed we should meet up at bar, drink , and talk German to one another. I've done this many a time before and the looks people give you are pretty hilarious. Ich wunsche du das beste mit Barmann, und hoffe dinge willst bist in ordnung. Wen nichts, figg er fur sehen nicht was ein gut person du bist. Auf Wiedersen. Bis Sonntag. 
iggy:
religious weekend in A.C huh? seems odd to me but then again i was thinking of going to church for shits and giggles. This rejection sucks i think we should get togther and cry about it over a couple of beers.