im one of those people who doesn't mind being alone. and frankly, i need it sometimes. an hour a day. in quiet. i derive a sincere calm out of just sitting on a park bench alone, watching the birds fly or the grass wave in the winds.
there's no shame in cloistering oneself up for abit. the thing is not cloistering oneself up forever.
it's possible to cloister and still be amongst people. you can compartmentalize it perhaps. cloister only portions of yourself. maybe bits that you are ashamed of or are afraid people might accidentally hurt.
it's either fear of hurt....or hurt....or fear?
some people look up one day and get that horrible feeling like they've wasted their life away. some of them panic, some of them party extra hard, some of them worry,some of them shrug and continue with what they were doing, and a very very small minority do none of those things.....what the hell do they do?
I finally caught up with a friend who's doing well. she's dating some guy from london. i'm happy for her.
my best friend since ...wow...since i was ..like 8. ..he's already been married...he has a son..and now he's divorced...but now things are going very well, he's finally met someone that really matches his weird and hilarious sardonic wit. i'm happy for him.
my good friend aly in arizona, who moved out from her hometown in washington to arizona and moved in with some guy who was her first love.....and over the past couple years, she's been learning chinese...she's really good at it!......and she since broke up with that dude...went to china...came back..then went to taiwan. and she's says she's in love. i'm happy for her too.
i was lucky to have what i had. it might be a decade. love either must be out there or it's all been soured by hallmark and it's meaningless.
meaningless I SAY!!!!! GODAMNNIT!!!!!!!!
there's no shame in cloistering oneself up for abit. the thing is not cloistering oneself up forever.
it's possible to cloister and still be amongst people. you can compartmentalize it perhaps. cloister only portions of yourself. maybe bits that you are ashamed of or are afraid people might accidentally hurt.
it's either fear of hurt....or hurt....or fear?
some people look up one day and get that horrible feeling like they've wasted their life away. some of them panic, some of them party extra hard, some of them worry,some of them shrug and continue with what they were doing, and a very very small minority do none of those things.....what the hell do they do?
I finally caught up with a friend who's doing well. she's dating some guy from london. i'm happy for her.
my best friend since ...wow...since i was ..like 8. ..he's already been married...he has a son..and now he's divorced...but now things are going very well, he's finally met someone that really matches his weird and hilarious sardonic wit. i'm happy for him.
my good friend aly in arizona, who moved out from her hometown in washington to arizona and moved in with some guy who was her first love.....and over the past couple years, she's been learning chinese...she's really good at it!......and she since broke up with that dude...went to china...came back..then went to taiwan. and she's says she's in love. i'm happy for her too.
i was lucky to have what i had. it might be a decade. love either must be out there or it's all been soured by hallmark and it's meaningless.
meaningless I SAY!!!!! GODAMNNIT!!!!!!!!